Sunday, January 10, 2010

REMEMBRANCE 62: LOSS OF HOPE

I was grateful to Marini and Didie for accompanying me to the Sultanah Bahiyah Hospital on the last day of 2009. It was my stipulated day to have my blood sample taken and also to hand over my 24 hours urine sample that I had diligently collected on the previous day.

I told Marini and Didie to go home and wait for my call after I have finished all my medical tasks at the hospital. Based on my previous experiences and looking at the number of patients in that morning, I was very certain that it would take at least about three hours for my mission to be accomplished. However Marini chose to wait for me at the hospital. Sure enough both of them were bored to the teeth waiting for me to finish off my mission which was only over at 12.15 pm.

For me, the three hours waiting period was not a burden because it was in fact an opportunity for me to meet my friends and former staffs. Since my appointment number was 2994, I met with two pensioners bearing the appointment numbers of 2992 and 2998 respectively. The patient with the number 2992 was the wife of the pensioner of a State Clerical Service while the patient with the waiting number 2998 was a pensioner from the State Town and Country Planning Department.

I knew the wife of the clerk as she was also a clerk at the school where my daughter was schooling in the eighties. From my official acquaintances with her at the school, I found out that she was a hot tempered lady and also was not a customer friendly lady either. I pity her husband but at the same time admired him for taking a very good care of her after she suffered a stroke a few years ago.

From her behaviour on the wheel chair, I believed her ill tempered character has not changed for the better all over these years. Although she was having a constraint on her speech, yet she was even complaining aloud because she could not stand the slow waiting process before her appointment number was up. When she started raising her voice to the annoyance of the other patients, her husband would push her wheel chair around the hospital to appease her. I admired her husband who has not lost his confidence on the prospect of her recovery. He told me with confidence that as he has tried every remedy for his wife that he could hold on. Money is not a hindrance for him but his priority is the recovery of his wife health. I pray to Allah that she would experience a speedy recovery. Insya Allah.

In contrast to our caring husband who has very high hope on the chances of his wife’s recovery, our retiree friend from the State Department of Town and Country Planning has entirely lost hope on his own recovery. He was suffering from the same ailments that I am experiencing i.e. heart ailment, gout, osteoarthritis and renal ailment.

Although I am having multiple ailments, yet my medical treatments is more structured than his because I followed to the toe on whatever advice or treatment that has been prescribed by my attending doctors. I have gathered vast knowledge about my ailments which I have used them to the fullest during my discussions with my attending doctors. I advised him that since we are having multiple ailments, we should synchronise our multiple treatments so that it could compliment each other. I told him that we could not stop our aging process but we could alter our aging process and improve our quality of life if could practice self discipline in our approach towards sickness..


There are living testimony that growing older doesn’t necessarily equate with aging. All of us grow older, but aging is a choice. There is a clear cause and effect between aging conditions, your diet and lifestyle. Modifying simple daily activities will help you to achieve fitness goals, sculpt a more youthful body contour, improve memory, improve energy levels and relieve the severity of age related conditions.

My parting advice to my retiree friend was for him to fathom the knowledge from his doctors about his actual medical condition and to follow through on all the advice prescribed by his attending doctors. As Allah is great and merciful, we should not easily loss hope on our own self. Instead we should pray for Allah’s blessing in our battle against our own apathy towards life or our own ailments. .

Later at the pharmacy department, I met with my former boss’s son, Ariff who was suffering from severe heart ailment but he was very confident in life. He refused to go for his by pass operation for he was really scared of the operation theater. He was very confident with the greatness of Allah as he was blessed with a twenty years of prolonged injury time life after he bolted away from the operating table twenty years ago. Alhamdullillah.

Tired of waiting for the completion of my medical tasks, Marini and Didie spent their time just by admiring the beauty of the Hospital garden.

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